Weight Wars

I've been thinking a lot about the on going battle between women and their views on the "normal" weight. Its always been a touchy subject, no matter who you are, you've probably felt insecure at one point about the number on your scale. Some people seem to think that everyone has self-induced there own weight by either eating or starving, but obviously that's not true. It seems fitting to say, we always want what we can't have.

If it was back then, I'd probably be proud of my natural weight, but instead I find myself feeling guilty or judged. I've always been able to avoid anything to do with weight when i was younger, everyone was treated right, big or small. Its wasn't until I became older that I experienced a fair amount of "are you anorexic?" or "does anyone feed you?", the amount of teasing was endless. At first I was always able to laugh and inform them i probably eat more then guys do, but after endless teasing it really adds up. It seems to me people think its more acceptable to crack jokes about underweight people because they think people like being that way i suppose. I've even had a doctor drill me about my weight (i know its their job) but it seriously almost had me in tears, its incredibly hurtful.

Another thing that gets me is when people ask me how i stay so skinny, after reading this you can guess, that I have no control over it. Yet, people seem disappointed, as if they wanted me to share a secret diet with them. This is my secret, i eat whatever i want, i love food, and I'm probably as healthy as a 40 year old over weight male. Not even kidding. Some people would be jealous or say I'm lucky to look the way i do, but they don't know the teasing or the fact i hated showing my legs or arms cause they're so darn long and lanky. To be completely honest though, as I grow older, i am starting to lose that metabolism, and i am finally starting to gain something, which makes me happy. Also as I get older i find I'm less and less embarrassed of my weight, I've decided that this is me, and no one can tell me that there's anything wrong with that.

In the end every size is beautiful, everyone has a preference and there is no normal. We just have to learn that no matter how hard we try to avoid it, there will always be someone telling people whats "right", we just have to learn how to be happy with our own perfect weight.